I often feel torn between all of the things which I want in life and as of yet I am unable to find a solution which I deem as satisfactory.
On one hand there is my fairy tale happy ever after. Girl meets boy, they fall in love, get married, have lots of pretty babies etc. In essence they live happily ever after (does anyone else feel Walt Disney has distorted their views on reality some what? But anyway this is off topic). In personally don't feel that I could be classed as female without wanting it all but, well there always is a but isn't there? How can I have this and my, okay I'll admit it possibly pipe dream, but dream none the less.
The dream of going to the Far East after graduation then on to the US. How can I have both? If i was to get my forever after then surely I would lose it all on my departure post graduation. After all it wouldn't be fair to expect someone else to move across the world from all that they know for the sake of my dream would it? But then I get my dream but no my forever after. Which leads to the question which means more to me? Unfortunately at the moment I don't have a satisfactory answer.